Samii

Hello there, and welcome to my little corner of the internet! This carrd is here just to explain some things about myself. Whether you've come out of curiosity or simply happened to wander by, I welcome you. Thank you for visiting, dear traveler, and enjoy your stay. ♡

"And she gave away the secrets of her past and said:

i've lost control again!"

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 Racism and other exclusivity  I have absolutely zero tolerance for racism in my spaces, regardless of who it is directed toward or how someone attempts to justify it. Racist slurs, stereotypes, harassment, dehumanization, fetishization, discriminatory behavior, or treating someone as lesser because of their race, ethnicity, culture, or appearance are not things I will entertain or excuse. This also includes racism disguised as “dark humor,” irony, ragebait, edgy jokes, or supposedly harmless comments. There is a difference between genuinely joking with people who are comfortable with you and using humor as an excuse to say hateful things, and I have no interest in keeping people around who repeatedly cross that line. You are responsible for the way you treat other human beings, and blatant racism is more than enough reason for me to remove someone from my space.For context, I am a white American from the South, and I understand that my own experiences are not the same as those of people of color. I do not expect praise or recognition simply for treating people with basic dignity, nor do I consider myself incapable of ever being ignorant or getting something wrong. I try my best to remain educated, considerate, and open to listening when people of color speak about experiences that I have not personally lived through. If I misunderstand something, use outdated language without realizing it, or otherwise make a genuine mistake, I would much rather be respectfully corrected and learn from it than become defensive. I believe being an ally is something demonstrated through consistent behavior—listening, learning, respecting boundaries, challenging prejudice when I encounter it, and recognizing when a conversation is not mine to speak over.Above everything else, I want the spaces surrounding me and my work to be welcoming to people regardless of race or ethnicity. POC should never have to earn basic respect from me, prove that their experiences are legitimate, or tolerate prejudice in order to interact with me. I will not knowingly protect or make excuses for someone who is openly racist simply because they are my friend, an artist I admire, popular within a community, or otherwise beneficial to me. I would rather lose an association than compromise on something this fundamental. I am always willing to continue learning, and I will inevitably have more to learn throughout my life, but the underlying boundary will remain incredibly simple: treat people like human beings. Racism is not welcome around me.Bestiality and Zoophilia
Due to severe trauma from my abusive ex-girlfriend, who is an active zoophile, I have an absolute, non-negotiable ban on bestiality and zoophilia anywhere near me or my spaces. This includes drawing furries with realistic animal genitalia, making "jokes" about animals being sexually attractive, and any references to reproduction with animals—even if framed as humor. Furries and were-hybrids are perfectly welcome here as long as they're humanized; however, sexualizing feral animals—regardless of whether they're anthropomorphized with human speech or intelligence—is completely off-limits. This includes sexualizing feral pokemon. This boundary is firm, personal, and non-debatable. Violating it will result in immediate removal. Homophobia  I am proudly queer and currently identify as a demisexual genderfluid lesbian. I am also happily taken by my beautiful girlfriend, Mila, whom I love dearly. Because of this, I do not welcome flirting of any kind, romantic or sexual jokes involving either of us, or the fetishization of my sexuality and relationship. Additionally, I ask that others respect the labels I currently use. My identity is my own, and past labels do not invalidate the ones that best describe me today. I have previously identified as omniromantic, but that does not make me any less of a lesbian now. I have been debating on using this label for quite some time now, and after being with my girl, it is the label I feel comfortable using right now. My experiences and orientation are not subjects for debate, speculation, or policing. And I would appreciate if ex associates didn't try and dictate otherwise. I also do not appreciate people claiming I am not a valid lesbian due to self shipping with fictional men. You are an absolute moron if you do such a thing.

 Yumeshipping  I am a longtime and very passionate yumeshipper, and I openly share my selfships and fictional crushes. For me, yumeshipping is an art hobby, a source of comfort, a coping mechanism, and something fun and meaningful that I enjoy with my girlfriend, Mila, as it is one of the things that brought us together in the first place. I have been engaging in fictional crushes and selfships for as long as I can remember, and I have no intention of stopping. I ask that others respect this interest and understand that it is an important and harmless part of how I express myself and connect with the things I love. Additionally, the fact that many of my fictional crushes happen to be male does not invalidate my identity as a lesbian. Fictional attraction and real-life attraction are not the same, and I do not appreciate others attempting to police, question, or redefine my identity based on the characters I enjoy. My labels, hobbies, and experiences are my own, and I ask that they be treated with kindness and respect. Furries  I am proudly a member of the furry community, and the vast majority of the art I create and enjoy revolves around anthropomorphic characters. I have many fursonas and original characters, as creating and collecting them is one of my favorite creative outlets. Because of this, I do not tolerate anti-furry harassment or hostility toward the community. Likewise, I would greatly appreciate it if others refrained from making negative comments or unnecessary remarks about the number of fursonas and characters I own. Character creation and collection is a hobby that brings me joy, and I believe everyone should be free to express themselves creatively without ridicule. You do not have to share my same belief, but I do not care how many fursonas someone has. I can and will have as many as I please. Socializing  I am a naturally introverted and somewhat shy person, though I genuinely enjoy meeting new people and am always open to making friends. I also live with BPD (diagnosed), autism, ADHD (diagnosed), anxiety, and chronic exhaustion, all of which can affect my energy levels, social battery, and ability to consistently communicate. I do my best to be kind, friendly, and welcoming whenever I can, but there may be times when I struggle to respond, become less active, or simply need space to rest and recharge. I also struggle with a temper. Please understand that these periods are rarely personal, and I deeply appreciate patience, understanding, and gentle communication. Above all, I ask that others treat me with the same compassion and respect that I strive to give to those around me.

 Religion  I am a pagan and Wiccan-leaning spiritual person, and my beliefs are deeply personal to me. I can be very spiritual at times, and I place a great deal of importance on intuition, astrology, nature, and my connection to Mother Earth. I also worship God and Jesus, though my faith and relationship with them are approached from a more pagan perspective rather than a strictly traditional one. I understand that my beliefs may seem unusual or differ from those of others, and that is perfectly okay. I do not expect anyone to share or understand my spirituality, but I do ask that it be treated with kindness and respect. Likewise, I have no interest in debating religion, forcing my beliefs onto others, or judging those whose paths differ from my own. Everyone's spiritual journey is unique, and I believe we should all be free to practice and believe in ways that bring us peace and meaning. Horror culture  I have always been, and always will be, a horror girl at heart. I adore horror, the paranormal, folklore, abandoned places, morbid curiosities, creepy-cute aesthetics, unusual things, and fictional depictions of gore and monsters. I also have a deep love for eerie and unconventional furry designs. However, I want to make it abundantly clear that my interests are entirely fictional and artistic in nature. I do not support or glorify real-life violence, cruelty, or harm in any form. Strange, spooky, and unsettling things have always fascinated me creatively, and I believe there is nothing wrong with finding beauty and comfort in the unusual. You do not have to share my tastes, but I kindly ask that they be respected just as I respect the interests of others. Abusers  I have absolutely no tolerance for abuse, grooming, predatory behavior, or those who knowingly defend, excuse, or enable such actions. The safety and wellbeing of myself and those I care about will always come before maintaining appearances or keeping the peace. Additionally, there are certain individuals from my past whom I do not wish to reconnect with or interact with again. This boundary exists for my own comfort, healing, and peace of mind, and it is not open for debate or negotiation. If you are one of these individuals, or are acting on their behalf, I respectfully ask that you do not contact me or attempt to involve yourself in my life. I believe everyone has the right to establish boundaries that allow them to feel safe, and I kindly ask that mine be honored. But I will warn you that I am VERY confrontational. If you mess with me or one of my friends, I do not care to make sure you are comfortable.

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NAME  Samii/Sammy/Sam, Ansleigh, bunny/bunnii/bunUSERNAMES  Deathproofhat on most socials, but I use various other ones.AGE  23DATE OF BIRTH  December 2nd, 2002GENDER & PRONOUNS  Genderfluid, They/She/He/Bun/ItORIENTATION  bisexual? idkRACE/ETHNICITY White, North American(Southerner)

HEIGHT  5'5ftHAIR  Short with bangs, blackEYES  Dark blue-gray, central heterochromiaHOBBIES  Digital art, writing, yumeshippingRELATIONSHIP STATUS  Dating Tekuuma (Mila)AESTHETIC  Cutecore mainly, but somedays Gothic and victorian/antique too.ASTROLOGY  Saggitarius Sun, Scorpio Moon, Virgo RisingMBTI  INFJRELIGION  PaganNEURODIVERGENCES & DISORDERS 
- Borderline Personality Disorder (diagnosed)
- ADD (diagnosed) and Autism (suspected)

REGARDING COMMISSIONS. Drawing has always been something I do purely for enjoyment and self-expression. At this time, I only create art for myself and occasionally make gifts for my close friends. I do not take commissions, as turning art into an obligation would quickly make it stressful and take away the fun and comfort it brings me. I want to continue creating at my own pace and preserve my love for drawing, so I kindly ask that people respect this boundary. Perhaps this may change in the future, but for now, I simply wish to create because it makes me happy.MY ART HISTORY AND PRESENT DAY. For many years, I struggled with tracing and taking from other artists, something I deeply regret. Since then, I have made amends with the people I harmed and have chosen to move forward by learning to draw honestly and develop my own abilities. I am still growing as an artist and have a very long way to go, but I am proud of the progress I have made and the effort I continue to put in. Because of this, I kindly ask that others refrain from mocking my art or offering unsolicited critiques. Drawing is something I do for comfort and enjoyment, not perfection. My work is usually simple and flat colored, as I do not have the time or energy to render heavily, and I am happy creating in a style that is enjoyable and sustainable for me. I appreciate everyone's understanding and hope people will allow me the space to continue learning and improving at my own pace.MY HUMOR AND PERSONALITY. I have always had a rather morbid sense of humor and a fascination with unusual, eerie, and grotesque subjects. Horror has been one of my biggest interests for as long as I can remember, and I enjoy learning about topics such as true crime, the paranormal, historical tragedies such as the Black Death and the Titanic, radiation, diseases, and other strange or unsettling subjects. I also enjoy fictional gore and creepy aesthetics in art and media. These interests are purely hobbies and curiosities, and they do not reflect my morals or how I treat real people. I am strongly against real-life violence and suffering, and I believe there is an important distinction between enjoying dark fiction or learning about disturbing topics and supporting harmful actions in reality. If my interests are not your cup of tea, that is completely understandable, and I simply ask that they be respected and you disengage. I will not change for you.

REGARDING 'DRAMA'. I have no interest in participating in public drama, callout culture, harassment campaigns, or prolonged online conflict, and I ask that anyone interacting with me extend that same courtesy. If you have an issue with me, something I have said or done, or information you believe I should be aware of, I am more than willing to have a calm, private, and civil conversation about it; however, I will not engage with hostility, vagueposting, dogpiling, threats, public arguments, or attempts to provoke a reaction from me. Please do not contact, harass, question, warn, or otherwise involve artists simply because I have commissioned, traded with, or interacted with them. The people I purchase art from are not responsible for me, my opinions, my history, or the people I choose to associate with, and dragging uninvolved artists into personal disagreements is completely unacceptable to me.
I also strongly encourage people to approach rumors, accusations, screenshots, and secondhand claims about me with basic critical thinking rather than immediately accepting them as fact. I am aware that there are people within certain art spaces who dislike me, including a few individuals with moderately large platforms. Some of that conflict stems from serious allegations and disputes in which I have publicly spoken against people I believed had engaged in abusive, predatory, or grooming behavior. Because these situations are contentious and may involve competing accounts of what happened, I ask that you judge any claims about me based on the actual evidence and context available rather than someone’s follower count, popularity, personal dislike of me, or the number of people repeating the same claim. You are completely free to dislike me, disagree with me, avoid me, or block me; I simply ask that you form your own conclusions rather than participating in harassment or treating rumors as established fact without looking into them yourself.

MENTAL HEALTH. I struggle heavily with depression, suicidal ideation, and intrusive thoughts, and these are things I have dealt with for a very long time. Because of this, my vents can sometimes be extremely blunt, emotional, and harsh. I do not sugarcoat my feelings or censor myself when I am expressing genuine distress, and I may discuss difficult or uncomfortable subjects openly. This is never meant to shock, manipulate, or hurt others, but rather reflects the reality of what I am experiencing in those moments. If intense discussions surrounding mental health, hopelessness, self-destructive thoughts, or uncensored venting are upsetting or triggering for you, I completely understand and encourage you to prioritize your own well-being. I only ask that people remember that moments of pain do not define my character, and that vulnerability and honesty are important parts of how I cope and process my emotions.YUMESHIPPING. I yumeship with many morally questionable and villainous characters, including ones that some people may consider "problematic" or label as abusive, such as Springtrap, Lorenzo Waterman, Michael Myers, Billy Loomis, and others. While I do occasionally enjoy creating dark, angsty, or horror-themed content surrounding these self ships, the vast majority of my works and feelings toward them are soft, sweet, and comforting in nature. My yumeships are a source of happiness, creativity, and escapism, and they should not be interpreted as endorsements of these characters' actions or beliefs. Fiction has always been a safe place for me to explore emotions and themes that would be unacceptable in real life. I do not romanticize abuse, violence, or harmful relationships, and as someone who has personally experienced abuse, I understand the seriousness of those topics. I believe there is a clear difference between enjoying fictional villains and supporting harmful behavior in reality, and I ask that others respect that distinction and allow me to enjoy my interests in peace.Small friend group I keep my actual friend circle intentionally small, and that's not something that will change. While I have plenty of connections and acquaintances across various spaces—including ones where my opps are :)—my close friends are kept to a minimum for my own wellbeing and due to past trauma. I'm absolutely open to people reaching out to chat about shared interests, sonas, OCs, or whatever else we might have in common, but please understand that friendly conversation doesn't equal instant friendship. I move at my own pace when it comes to letting people in, and I need that respected. I am a very anxious, introverted person with BPD and a very low social battery, socializing and keeping convos up is really hard sometimes. Majority of my energy is spent on my lovely girlfriend <3

  1. About my BPD. I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), and it affects many aspects of how I experience relationships and emotions. One of my biggest struggles is a deep fear of abandonment and difficulty trusting that people genuinely love, value, and care about me. Because of this, it can take me quite a while to consider someone a close friend and to truly feel safe, comfortable, and stable around them. Even with people I deeply cherish, I often wrestle with doubts and insecurities that are difficult to silence. On particularly bad days, I may withdraw, become quiet, or isolate myself rather than reach out, not because I no longer care, but because I am overwhelmed and trying to cope with intense emotions. I am constantly working on myself and doing my best, and I greatly appreciate patience, reassurance, honesty, and understanding from those who choose to be part of my life. Above all, I ask that people remember that my fears and struggles are not reflections of how much I value them, but rather symptoms of something I continue to learn to live with.

  2. I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, and while no one can say with complete certainty what causes it, much of my life has been marked by trauma, instability, and unhealthy relationships. My first father was physically, emotionally, and verbally abusive, and I experienced neglect throughout my childhood. Later, during middle school, I was pressured into a relationship with my best friend, Abigail, who had already been mistreating me long before we dated. She became my first FP (favorite person), and the years I spent around her left deep psychological scars that I am still healing from today. I have also experienced unhealthy and abusive friendships throughout my life. More recently, I chose to end a long-term friendship with someone who repeatedly hurt me and proved to be an unhealthy presence in my life, and chose to side with very harmful people. I WILL MAKE IT CLEAR THOUGH, that this ex friend was no where near as bad as Abigail, and I ask that you DO NOT compare the two at all. These experiences have shaped many of the fears and struggles I face today, particularly my fear of abandonment, difficulty trusting others, and intense emotional sensitivity. Although I carry a great deal of pain from my past, I am trying to heal, learn healthier ways to cope, and build a life surrounded by people who treat me with the kindness and respect everyone deserves.

  1. Living with Borderline Personality Disorder has not only meant dealing with the symptoms themselves, but also enduring a great deal of stigma, misunderstanding, and outright ableism from people I once trusted. Throughout my life, I have been treated as though my diagnosis made me manipulative, dangerous, or somehow less deserving of compassion and understanding. Some family members and former friends, including people I was very close to, used my struggles against me, dismissed my feelings, or reduced my entire identity to a label rather than seeing me as a person trying her best while living with a serious mental illness. These experiences have left lasting wounds and have made it even harder for me to trust others and believe that I am worthy of love, patience, and kindness. While I take responsibility for my own actions and continue striving to grow and heal, I also believe that having BPD does not make someone inherently abusive, toxic, or beyond help. I am more than my diagnosis, and I hope that people will approach those with personality disorders with empathy and understanding rather than fear, stereotypes, or prejudice.

  2. I firmly believe that mental illness and trauma are not competitions, and that suffering cannot and should not be measured against someone else's pain. Unfortunately, I have had many experiences with people who repeatedly compared their struggles to mine, dismissed what I had gone through, or attempted to "one-up" me by insisting that they had it worse. Throughout my life, I have always tried to be someone others could lean on, and I genuinely encourage my friends to vent to me and speak openly about their feelings. However, I have rarely been afforded that same space in return, which has left me feeling unheard and emotionally exhausted. Because of these experiences, I have chosen to keep most of my struggles private. I rarely vent publicly, and I almost never vent one-on-one. Please do not pressure me to open up or insist that I tell you what is wrong. If I wish to talk about something, I will do so in my own time and on my own terms. Support should be mutual, and I ask that my boundaries surrounding vulnerability and trust be respected.

  3. Above all, I ask that people remember that Borderline Personality Disorder is a serious and heavily stigmatized mental illness, not a moral failing or a character flaw. Statistically, BPD is one of the worst mental disorders to have and carries some of the highest risks for self harm, suicide, and emotional distress. People with BPD are not inherently abusive, manipulative, or dangerous, and we are just as capable of love, empathy, accountability, and growth as anyone else. Our emotions are often experienced with an intensity that can be difficult to explain, and many of us carry deep fears of abandonment, trauma, and struggles with self-worth. Patience, honesty, reassurance, and healthy communication go much further than judgment or stereotypes ever will. It is also important to understand that having BPD does not excuse harmful behavior, but neither does it make someone undeserving of compassion and understanding. Recovery is possible, healing is possible, and people with BPD are far more than the worst moments of their lives. We are human beings with hopes, fears, dreams, passions, and hearts that often feel things very deeply. At the end of the day, I simply hope to be treated with the same kindness, grace, and humanity that everyone deserves.

Kaz Brekker

"This city's price is blood. And I am happy to pay with your's." Among all of my beloved fictional characters and selfships, Kaz Brekker holds a truly special place in my heart right now. Ever since I first discovered him, his story, personality, strengths, flaws, and overall character have resonated with me in ways that are difficult to put into words. He has become a tremendous source of comfort, inspiration, and happiness throughout my life the past few months I have known him, and my yumeship with him is something I treasure very deeply. Creating art, writing stories, collecting imagery, and imagining different moments with him brings me genuine joy and has become one of my favorite creative outlets. To me, yumeshipping is an expression of love for the stories and characters that have touched my heart, and Kaz is undoubtedly one of the most important characters I have ever encountered.Because of this, I ask that others please treat my feelings and attachment with kindness and understanding. I am openly sharing and do not mind others loving Kaz or creating their own content involving him, nor do I believe in ownership over fictional characters. However, I would greatly appreciate it if people refrained from mocking my attachment, sending me hateful messages, fetishizing my selfship, or deliberately comparing me to others in ways meant to provoke jealousy or discomfort. My relationship with Kaz is something deeply personal, comforting, and meaningful to me, and I wish for it to remain a source of happiness rather than conflict. Above all, I hope that everyone who loves him, whether as a favorite character, comfort character, or fellow selfship partner, can coexist peacefully and celebrate the beautiful world that Leigh Bardugo created. After all, love for a character should bring comfort and inspiration, and I will forever be grateful to Kaz Brekker for the happiness, creativity, and memories he has brought into my life. He is one of the characters that helped get me and my girl Mila together too!I am fully aware that Kaz Brekker was originally written as a seventeen-year-old in the Six of Crows duology. However, the version of Kaz that I specifically selfship and yume with is his adult portrayal, particularly as depicted in later official material and adaptations such as the Shadow and Bone series, as well as my own aged-up interpretations. I have no interest in romanticizing or depicting underage relationships, and I kindly ask that others refrain from making assumptions or bad-faith accusations regarding my selfship. Someone I have blacklisted on Toyhouse has claimed I self ship with minor characters, and I am assuming Kaz is one of the two they're thinking of. Kaz is an adult in the tv show and republished versions of the novels. Check your facts before making false claims, thank you. Besides, I find it hilarious a groomer is accusing me of being a pedo for a fictional character, who is again, an adult in the current version of SOC. The projection and stupidity is wild. At least I haven’t hurt any minors, but you have! /dir

Katsuki Bakugou

"I will win, the way that I want to!" Katsuki Bakugou has been my beloved husband and number one favorite character since February 4th, 2019. Through every phase of my life, every hyperfixation, and every difficult moment, he has remained the one constant I always find myself returning to. Out of every fictional character I have ever loved, Katsuki holds the most special place in my heart and always will. He is far more than just a comfort character to me; he has become deeply intertwined with my creativity, happiness, and sense of comfort over the years. Our relationship means the world to me, and I treasure every memory, story, drawing, and moment I have created surrounding him. No matter how much time passes, Katsuki will always be my number one favorite character of all time and one of the most important sources of joy and inspiration in my life.I am openly sharing when it comes to my relationship with Katsuki Bakugou, and I genuinely enjoy meeting others who love him and the series. However, due to the size and reputation of the BNHA fandom, I am very selective about who I interact with and choose to keep my circle relatively small. I prefer to surround myself with people who are respectful and understanding of my feelings and boundaries. One of my biggest discomforts is the constant oversexualization of Katsuki, as I personally view him in a much softer and more romantic light. I also dislike claims that he is inherently abusive or reducing his character to only his flaws, as I believe there is far more depth and growth to him than many people give him credit for. Additionally, while I fully understand that shipping is a normal and harmless part of fandom, I would greatly appreciate not having ships involving Katsuki constantly brought up around me, as they simply are not something I personally enjoy discussing. Above all, I ask that people treat both myself and my love for him with kindness and respect, just as I strive to do for others and their interests.I first fell in love with Katsuki when I was a teenager myself, and our relationship has been something that has grown alongside me over the years. As both time and the story have progressed, I have always viewed him as growing older as well. I specifically yumeship with Katsuki as he appears toward the end of the series and in his adult years, not as his younger self. Because of this, claims that I am romantically involved with a minor character are simply untrue and misrepresent both my intentions and how I personally interpret him. My relationship with Katsuki has always been age-appropriate to my own stage of life, and I have no interest in depicting or engaging with anything involving underage romance. I simply wish to love and celebrate a character who has meant an incredible amount to me for many years, and I ask that others respect that understanding.

HABIT.

RABBIT OR HABIT? HABIT OR A RIB?. Yes, yet another villain has stolen my heart. How terrible of me. ♡ Habit from EverymanHYBRID is one of my most beloved characters currently and one of the yumeships I hold especially close to my heart. I have been obsessed with the series and the world surrounding it for many the past few days after finding him, and there is something about Habit himself—his chaotic personality, unsettling presence, dark humor, and overall terrifying charm—that has captivated me completely. I am fully aware that he is an objectively horrible person within his story, and that is precisely what makes him such an interesting and compelling character to me. Fictional villains have always fascinated me, and Habit is no exception. My love for him comes from a place of appreciating horror, storytelling, and the wonderfully strange story that EverymanHYBRID created. I often joke about my own "evil" taste in fictional men, but ultimately, my attachment is simply another expression of my love for spooky media and complex characters.I would also like to make it clear that my selfship is directed solely toward Habit himself as a fictional character. I do not selfship with, nor do I have romantic feelings toward, his actor or the real people involved in the production of EverymanHYBRID. I greatly respect the creators and performers who brought the series to life, but my affection remains entirely within the realm of fiction. Likewise, my love for Habit should not be interpreted as support for his actions or as an indication of my real-life morals. I have no difficulty separating fiction from reality like some people seem to struggle with, and I simply enjoy exploring dark stories, terrifying villains, and unconventional romances through a creative and harmless lens. After all, if loving fictional monsters and villains makes me evil, then perhaps I am doomed to be delightfully wicked forever.

Michael Myers

"I am here to continue his legacy." Michael Afton has been one of my favorite fictional characters since he wasperfectly brought to life by Freddy Carter in the second FNAF movie. Over the months since, he has become an important comfort character and a huge source of love for me.I love Michael Afton with my whole heart, and I can't help but smile whenever I think about him. There's something so special about the way he carries himself—haunted by his past but still fighting to be better, to do better. When I imagine us together, I picture myself being his safe place, the one who sees past the Afton name and the tragedies that follow him. I love how he gets grease on his face when he's working on the animatronics, how he looks at me with those tired but tender eyes that make me want to wrap my arms around him and never let go. In my dreams, we're inseparable; I'm the one who brings him coffee during late nights at the pizzeria, who makes him laugh when the weight of the world feels too heavy, who reminds him that he deserves love despite everything his family has done.My yume with him is a very comforting place to escape to—where I'm not just some bystander in his story, but the person he chooses, the one he comes home to. I imagine him pulling me close after a long shift, burying his face in my hair and finally letting himself relax because he knows I'm there. I love picturing us being soft with each other, trading quiet conversations in the dark, his calloused hands holding mine like I'm something precious. With me, he doesn't have to be the fixer or the protector or the last Afton—he just gets to be Michael, loved and wanted and enough. That's why I yume with him; because in our world, we heal each other, and I get to give him the happiness he was always denied.

Lorenzo Waterman

"Mr. and Mrs. Waterman were very, very, VERY bad people." Without a doubt, Lorenzo Waterman is my favorite analog horror character of all time, and The Walten Files as a whole holds a very special place in my heart. I have always adored horror and unsettling media, but there is something uniquely captivating about the atmosphere, tragedy, and mystery of Martin Walls' world that resonates with me deeply. Out of every character in the series, Lorenzo immediately stood out to me, and over time he became one of my most beloved fictional characters and yumeships. I absolutely adore his design, his voice, and the overall terrifying and eerie presence that surrounds him. There is something hauntingly beautiful about his unsettling nature and the way he embodies the dark, uncanny atmosphere that I love so much in horror media. Through art, writing, and daydreaming, I have grown incredibly attached to him, and he has become a tremendous source of comfort, inspiration, and creativity in my life. My love for Lorenzo comes from my appreciation of horror and storytelling, and I will forever cherish The Walten Files and the unforgettable character that stole my heart. A big part of why I am so attracted to Lorenzo is the overall atmosphere of his episodes. They are PERFECT to me and I never tire of watching them multiple times every month.My relationship with Lorenzo exists firmly within the realm of horror, dark romance, and fictional storytelling. Naturally, a relationship with someone as terrifying and uncanny as Lorenzo would begin under frightening circumstances, and I fully embrace that aspect because, as a lifelong goth and horror enthusiast, I genuinely adore fear, tension, and the beautiful unease that comes with being frightened in fiction. To me, terror is not something ugly, but something fascinating and strangely comforting when explored through stories and art. Depending on the universe or scenario, our relationship may begin with mystery, obsession, or even tragedy, but I do not personally interpret our dynamic as abusive, nor do I romanticize harmful relationships in reality. Rather, I enjoy exploring themes of devotion, fear, the uncanny, and unconventional love through the lens of any genre of horror. There is something deeply beautiful to me about finding tenderness and affection amidst darkness and dread. These stories are purely fictional expressions of my love for horror and should never be mistaken for my real-life values. In truth, I simply enjoy the idea of two strange souls finding comfort in one another despite how different they are.I adore every incarnation of Lorenzo Waterman and cherish each interpretation of his character throughout The Walten Files universe. From his living appearance to his haunting post-death design within Purgatory, I find something deeply fascinating and beautiful in every version of him. Each form adds another layer to the tragedy, mystery, and unsettling atmosphere that make him such an unforgettable character to me. However, if I had to choose a favorite, it would undoubtedly be his appearance in Return of the Pumpkin Rabbit. That episode is, in my eyes, an absolute masterpiece and one of my favorite pieces of horror media ever created. The length, atmosphere, pacing, and overwhelming sense of dread are simply perfect to me. Lorenzo is portrayed in such a menacing, eerie, and strangely captivating way that I cannot help but adore him even more. There is something hauntingly beautiful about the way he moves, speaks, and exists within that story. The combination of terror, mystery, and tragedy makes him feel almost dreamlike, and his presence lingers long after the episode ends. It perfectly captures everything I love about analog horror and gothic storytelling. No matter which version of Lorenzo I am admiring, he will always remain one of the most important fictional characters in my life, but Return of the Pumpkin Rabbit will forever hold a particularly special place in my heart for giving me the terrifying, beautiful, and unforgettable portrayal that made me fall in love with him all over again.

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Ship Exclusive.    Short description of relationship.  FIRSTNAME LASTNAME    —  @blogurl
Main.    Short description of relationship.

  FIRSTNAME LASTNAME    —  @blogurl
Heavily Affiliated.    Short description of relationship.  FIRSTNAME LASTNAME    —  @blogurl
Exclusive.    Short description of relationship.  FIRSTNAME LASTNAME    —  @blogurl
Ship Exclusive.    Short description of relationship.  FIRSTNAME LASTNAME    —  @blogurl
Main.    Short description of relationship.

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